I told about how I remembered standing in front of another group (the previous campus I directed) before I got cancer and discussing how I was a “cup half –empty” type of person instead of being the eternal optimist. I described myself as a realist and said that I thought it was good that I saw the cup always as half – empty because it was people like me in the world that are always striving to make things better instead of just settling. There is always more to do and ways to improve and that’s good. I was saying all of this as I was explaining why I was leaving that campus to start another program.
Anyways, on Monday at the school lunch time our students as usual got to quickly eat their meals and then go and play sand volleyball right outside the church. I stood for a while in the beautiful weather and watched the smiles and laughter (and even played a tiny bit) as these kids enjoyed life. I thought there isn’t any room to improve at this very minute. I was just full of satisfaction and happiness in and about life. As the day progressed I had this same thought and feeling of contentment and joy, which well, is just indescribable. Every time I thought things couldn’t get any better, they did, with someone saying a prayer request was answered or the younger students in the GIFT program (another program I started for 5th and under students) singing the hymns they had memorized to great conversations and kind words here and there throughout the day.
I thought about how God has changed my heart and outlook on things. Now don’t get me wrong, I still want to work to improve things, but now that I am cancer free and I trust God for every day I see things in a different and more positive light. Even when things are difficult I have a deeper and stronger faith and resolve. My cup truly runneth over.
We have a sweet little finch in a pretty cage in our kitchen. She currently sits there without a mate because one of our three cats had a nice dinner a few weeks ago. The next morning was definitely a sad one in the Fieglein home. Anyways, she’s quieter than her boyfriend was and perhaps she just lonely and needs someone who speaks her language. She chirps up to me at certain times when she wants her food or water changed out. Just like a baby cries for a clean diaper, food or touch, this little bird has her needs. I think about how she is solely dependant on me for her day today living and how without her food she would be helpless and die. I think about Matthew 6:26: Look at the birds. They don't plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren't you far more valuable to him than they are? If my little bird was out of her cage she would be still have food supplied to her from God above.
Just like my little bird, when I depend completely on God and ask Him to supply all my needs, he does so abundantly and always more than I could imagine and I can image pretty big. I am in awe of Him today. I am excited about the things He will accomplish. I am excited that I get to be a part of a big picture design and plan that the creator of the universe put into place!
Now I gotta go and wake all the kids and even the one that slept over, so seven, and get everyone up and running so they can enjoy this wonderful and blessed life.
I hope you see the positive in this day no matter where you are or what you are going through. God loves you, cares about every detail in your life and had everything in control. Trust in him and your cup will spill over too.