February 13, 2012 - Alternative Thinking - Waiting for God's Path to be Revealed

Suppose you own an antique dining room table which is worth many tens of thousands of dollars. Suppose your butler tells you that there are dozens of cockroaches crawling around on your priceless table and you will be having dinner guests in one hour.

Your butler informs you that his job description does not include killing cockroaches and as he is leaving your house he suggests four options for getting rid of the cockroaches:
1) He suggests you use a chainsaw to "slash" the little critters to pieces,
2) He suggests you use a large and powerful flamethrower to "burn" the critters to pieces,
3) He suggests you pour 2 gallons of a highly, highly toxic liquid chemical on the table to "poison" the critters, and
4) He suggests you use an old $1 flyswatter.

Which of the four options would you use to get rid of the cockroaches? Would you choose one of the first three options (slash, burn and poison) because they are highly potent at killing cockroaches or would you choose the cheap, wimpy flyswatter?

Think about why you would make your choice. Most likely you would pick the flyswatter because the other three items (which are far more powerful than a flyswatter at killing cockroaches) are also massively powerful at destroying your priceless table!!

O.K. So now that you have read that, you may understand why I am not thrilled about chemo, surgery, radiation and everything else, especially when i have a very high chance (80 - 85%)of reoccurance.

I am talking with Mark tonight. Six weeks in and 5 chemo treatments and tons of medicine and lots of scare tactics have frustrated and annoyed me. Our lives have been so busy that instead of stopping and really praying for wisdom and dissernment on our knees and waiting on his answers; we have been told by the medical doctors that there is no time and it could grow while we wait. Who knows that better than God himself? I want to stop,take a breath and look at all the research I have complied and understand now. I want Mark and I to come to a place of knowing the path God wants us to go down. A path that is from the Lord, not just some human who thinks they know best. Only the Lord knows best and I will not be maniplualted into beliving soemone else's side of view just because they think it's the right way. I am certainly capable of praying for wisdom and discernment and listening and waiting on the Lord. Of course, we have been praying, but just quick shot prayers at night as a family and of course with friends and such. Now if we can slow down a bit perhaps we can hear what he wants since praying is only 1/2 of the conversation. I think Mark is getting to the place where he realizes there are options and we need to start considering them. Please pray we will make the right choices and find the right people to help us on this journey.

Life is very fast pased right now and so if I haven't Thanked you for soemthing I appologize. Please know I love and appreciate all of you and your prayers. Of course, I'll keep you updated.

Blessings: Realization that we have to seek the only one with all the answers (God) first and foremost before going forward.