My Story

I was diagnosed with Stage 3 Her2 positive breast cancer Dec. 27th, 2011. I had three large tumors in my left breast, I also had two positive lymph nodes and so with 5 positive biopsies I started my journey. In the beginning, it was a whirlwind and within a week, I was getting a port and preparing for chemo and the rush to save my life was on. Eight months later (August 20th) after stopping chemo (12 sessions) and not having surgery (a suggested double mastectomy) or radiation like my doctors wanted me to, I sat at Cancer Treatment Centers of America in Illinois and heard the results of a mammogram, MRI, Pet Scan and blood tests were that they could find no cancer in my body. The nurses and doctors were baffled and no one could explain how I could have had this terrible cancer and it was now gone, except for me. I said the Lord healed me through prayers, education, diet and supplements. I started this blog when I was first diagnosed, it is not just about on cancer, but my life and day-to-day thoughts and activities. There are suggested websites, blogs, videos and more here that I believe can benefit those dealing with cancer and those who want to be preventative. My hope is that you and yours will learn, be encouraged and healed. My family prays every night for those with cancer and that you will be not only be healed but that you will live long and happy lives.
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Love and Blessings on your journey.

Saturday, December 15, 2012

God Permits for a Reason - December 15, 2012

          God permits things for a reason, even horrible and terrible things that we as humans cannot understand and comprehend. I sat several hours throughout yesterday, watching the news reports, crying and praying for those involved in the shooting at Sandy Hook elementary and the for those that knew the mother of the shooter who was killed by her own son’s hands.  My heart  breaks for these families that have had a child die and experience fear in a place that was supposed to be a safe haven for them. I know I cannot even imagine the pain and suffering they have this Christmas season.
             I had to tell my children what had happened and explain that God has a purpose. I had to tell my daughter (Hope) that she can go to public school on Monday, that things will be okay, that God has a plan for her life, and we need to trust in Him even in scary times. Her elementary school has already had a bomb threat this year. I hear things like this along with shootings in malls and schools and and I can understand why some parents get anxious. We just prayed together as a family and received His comfort. I hope these families can do the same.

            I know without a shadow of a doubt that the Lord is good and just and in control, even in times of high stress, illness, and senseless killings. If God allows Satan access for sin, there is a higher purpose for it. God does not make mistakes and He knows what he is doing even if we wonder in amazement how things can be so horrible and evil.  Satan is very real and He causes many pleasures and pains, but Satan is not ultimate. When Satan struck down Job with many things, his friends blamed God and suggested that he curse God for what He had allowed.
Job 42:11 - Then all his brothers and all his sisters and all who had known him before came to him, and they ate bread with him in his house; and they consoled him and comforted him for all the adversities that the LORD had brought on him. And each one gave him one piece of money, and each a ring of gold.

Job 2:10 - But he said to her, "You speak as one of the foolish women speaks. Shall we indeed accept good from God and not accept adversity?" In all this Job did not sin with his lips.
            I hope and pray that if you are facing things and you are hurt by others, negative circumstances, suffering through illness, especially cancer that you will not blame God, as Job’s friends and wife wanted him to do. I have blamed God in the past and looking back, I know it was because I was just ignorant of the truth of God and His words. These terrible things were and are meant for my good and are His way of refining us.  Proverbs 17:3 – “The refining pot is for silver and the furnace for gold, But the LORD tests hearts.”
            I am so thankful now for God allowing me to go through the things I have, even today and this last few weeks as I have had many difficult circumstances and situations. God is so good and he allows it all for His greater purpose. Romans 8:28 – “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.” And Psalms 84:11 – “For the LORD God is a sun and shield; the LORD bestows favor and honor; no good thing does he withhold from those whose walk is blameless.”
            The aim of God in these difficult circumstances and trials is to knock us down so that we can depend on Him and not rely on ourselves, man, or even the things that you have for comfort such as money or family. He wants us to turn and depend on Him and delight in Him.
            We all have to face sadness and even death. Ecclesiastes 7:2 – “It is better to go to a house of mourning than to go to a house of feasting, for death is the destiny of every man; the living should take this to heart.” We are to face death and number our days - Psalms 90:12 – “Teach us to number our days aright, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.” I hope and pray that we can all realize the gift of life today and hold the truth (God’s word) close to our hearts along with those we know and love.
            Life is precious and too important for trivial arguments and lack of forgiveness. Life is too short for our own selfish pleasures to take over instead of working hard for others and for the glory of the Lord. Life is too wonderful even in trials to miss God’s hands and the reflection of who He is through the wonders He has made. Stop and look around today. Spend some time looking at the miracles of life and the world He created and that we are privileged to live in and you will see God’s mighty hand at work. I promise you will. Colossians 1:16 – “For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him.”

            I hope that we can overlook sin and the terrible things such as this and other recent senseless killings. I hope and pray we can look deeper to the fact that people killed were blessings from the Lord to begin with. He knit them in their mother's wombs and they all had a rerason and purpose in life. They were blessings to many for the years they were alive., even if only 5 years old.  I hope and pray that we cry out to God in our suffering and seek Him, His comfort, and the peace that passes understanding in and through our pain. I hope we can remember it is the Lord that gives and takes away life. I believe that those that trusted in the Lord and the children are with Him now. I pray we focus on that and His provision and love for us today and every day. God is so good.
Job 1:20 - At this, Job got up and tore his robe and shaved his head. Then he fell to the ground in worship and said: “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart. The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised
10,000 Resasons - by Matt Redman

Have a blessed day in the Lord,

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