Faith, Fear and Belief - August 17, 2012

So, we are in Chicago, actually Zion which is about an hour and a half away.  I am loving spending time away from the heat and with my hubby. The weather is amazing, the people are so sweet, the town is adorable and I even like our hotel! I have been giddy and smiling the whole time, because, well it has just been fun. Mark and I have talked, laughed, taken pictures, and enjoyed our time alone.

The plane ride was good and I enjoyed the conversation with a man, a lawyer who lives in the Meyerland neighborhood. Mark and I were picked up by Bart, our limo driver who was willing to take us anywhere, but we requested just the hotel.  Bart said that the Illinois campus was the first built and that the same doctors work here and that many people weather their insurance covers them somewhere else or not come here just for the doctors and so that was good to hear.  

The hotel was remodeled last year and is very nice. We got in around 5:30 and so we had the evening to get to know the town. We did a lot of walking. There was a sweet farmers market still going on which we walked to, and then there are parks everywhere and just walking up and down the main strip our hotel is on has been fun.  We ate deep-dish pizza for dinner a whole in the wall pizzeria and it was okay, but we really want to take the train into Chicago at some point and try another place.

I am frustrated with my brain at this point; I guess it’s the stress or excitement that has been really doing a number on my sleep needs and preventing more than 4 hours for the last few days. I went to bed at 10:00 and I got up at 2:30 and I have been trying to go back to sleep since but it’s now 5:42 and I have to take my shower at 6:30 to get over believe to the hospital at 7:30 for tests. There is an adorable coffee shop right across the street and it opens at 7:00, and so my plan is to hit that and then we will wait for the shuttle that picks up here at the hotel every 20 minutes. The hotel is only about 3 blocks away but we have done a lot of walking and don’t want to be late.

I sit up praying that I will be one of those miracle cases and that all the cancer will be completely gone when they run the MRI and PET scans and such. I have 3 appointments scheduled already and so we will see how this goes.  I am anxious, nervous and excited all at the same time.

I have faith that I can be healed, but I fear I may not be and I believe that God is in control.

I have faith that today can be a great day, but I fear it may not and I that God is in control.

I have faith that miracles happen, but I fear I may not know that personally, but I believe that God is in control.

Please pray for God’s will to be done today and every day. I plan to write more regularly while I am away since so many friends and family want to know how things are going.

Love and Blessings,

Karri